Spicy Spice

i love my friends

"BUT there will be no pantelone action....as i will be bleeding from my vagina at the time"

AHAHAHAH. i laughed for like, 5 minutes. good work out.

shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:22 PM):
*LOL
*well whatever, even if you just get a weekend of hot sex it'll be worth it
*:D
- miss*αshley   † _ says (1:23 PM):
*OMG
*okay. make out session MAYBE
*lol
shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:23 PM):
*hahhaaha
- miss*αshley   † _ says (1:23 PM):
*LOL
*lets not get carried away
shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:23 PM):
*did you just say that with a straight face?
shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:24 PM):
*cause i cant picture either of us being like "okay MIGHT MAYBE make out with a hot guy bu thats it" without laughing afterwards
*hahaha
- miss*αshley   † _ says (1:24 PM):
*YES!
*OMG
*LOL
*okay no
*BUT STILL
shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:24 PM):
*LOLLLLLLLLL
*I know I know
*im only kidding
shani'  class till 2:30 says (1:25 PM):
*but fuck it would be funny
*best weekend ever
*hahah

"i don't want to... that seems so mean"
"...but would he even notice?"

i'm such an idiot.
i honestly thought if i made the effort and provided the perfect opportunity for you to fix things that you would take the chance. that you would give me a chance. give us a chance.
how stupid could i be? i knew i shouldn't have bothered. now i'm right back where i was 4 weeks ago. only this time is the last time. it will never happen again because that was my last effort. you forgot about me a long time ago and i should have done the same.
i made so many excuses for you. not anymore. i'm done telling myself what i want to hear and pretending it's okay. i'm done setting myself up for you to disappoint me again. i'm done wasting my time thinking about you, crying over you, or attempting to have a normal conversation with you. i'm done trying to convince you that you still want me. maybe you'll realize that yourself one day, maybe you won't but it doesn't matter.
you tried so hard to convince me that you were different from all the others that hurt me and you were right. you were different. you were so much worse than any of them because you knew everything that was going on in my head, everything that happened in my past, and everything that i was so scared would happen in my future and you still left without warning, an explanation or an apology.
at this point all i can do is smile thank Jesus that it only took me 4 months to figure you out.
you weren't worth it.

note to self: avoid attracting stalkers in the future. thanks.

the britney spears concert was amazing. that's the only word i can use to describe it. pcd were amazing, britney herself was amazing. the show as a whole was amazing. basically, the entire night = amazing. i ended up spending the night at chantal's house. yay sleepover.

thursday my class got cancelled so i was like SWEEEEEEET. chantal and i started pretty much around the same time so her grandpapa drove us both. again, sweet. i closed on lane 8 and managed to get everyone out of there by 9:45. GO ME.

friday was such a good day too. sabrina came and picked me up at 10 and we went to the beauty supply outlet. afer she went to drop me off at work but it was mad early so we decided to do some grocery shopping until 12:30.  Sidney came in for a quick visit around 1:30 i think :) so that was uber cute. unfortunately he couldn't stay long because it was kinda busy and he had to go meet his mommy for lunch. since i wasn't closing i stayed on lane pretty much all day and at 8:30 i was like PEACE OUT!

and then today was the SWEET THING concert. i ended up convincing chris to take me to fairview so i could get a dress for my birthday party this friday. i got the cutest pink dress EVER from le chateau. i'm so excited now. but yea, we headed downtown right after and were a little early so we walked around shoppers drug mart for a bit and since chantal and chris dont' have optimum cards i totally stole all the points they could've earned. the doors forthe concert opened at 7 and jsut after 8 the opening act went on. they were pretty good. sweet thing went on aout 10 minutes after the opening act finished. they were really good. obviously. the people that were at the concert were al freaks though. they way they were dancing... i don't think i've ever seen anything like it.

so yea. now i'm sleeping over at chantal's house again. having a cool laptop party. listening to BoA :)

i just cancelled my GodsGirls subscription :(